Friday, November 7, 2014

Ironman Florida 2014 (Sans Swim)


Pre Race
                I had solid 8 week training block leading up this race.   And I had some of my best training days I have ever had.  I was feeling confident but had high goals for this race, so was nervous as always, if not more.
                Packed up to leave just like last year on Tuesday night, stopped half way to finish getting there on Wednesday.  I didn’t want to feel rushed and enjoyed having the extra day on Wednesday to get things organized and finalized. Went for short swims and bricks the days there.  The water was amazing and great conditions (soon to change).  The weather was predicting a huge cold front coming through and extreme high winds.  I was trying not to focus on this and just focus on what needed to be done.
               
Race Morning
                I did sleep fairly well, and woke up only a few times, we could hear the wind howling out of the window. This did not leave much to the imagination of how bad the winds were going to be.  After I got up at 4 the final time, I ate a quick breakfast and headed down to transition to get my bike ready.  It was bone chilling cold and the wind was even worse.  I got my bike ready and headed back to the condo to get warm and try to relax.  Around 630, we headed down to the beach.  Shortly before the pros were about to get in the water, they made an announcement that the swim was canceled due to winds and rip tide.  It was seriously dangerous looking.  I hated they canceled it but was the right thing to do.
                They told us to be back at our bikes at 8 for a rolling TT start.  This morning was the craziest morning I have had prior to a race.  My mind was all over the place and I even lost the feeling that I was even racing.  Hard to get into a race mindset, when so many things changed and I was standing for an hour at bike literally shaking from the cold.  Luckily I was standing with Mollie, and she always tries to keep me focused and calm.



Bike
                Finally time for to walk my bike past the mount line and get on and go.  I was riding my P5, with my Flo 60 and Flo Disc.  I was so happy to be on my bike and going that I almost forgot how cold I was, maybe that was because I couldn’t feel that I even had fingers or toes any more.  I knew the winds were coming out of the North/Northwest.  So the first 23 miles would be pretty much a direct headwind.  It was extremely difficult mentally to push through that especially after having to stand and wait, for everyone.  I had been focusing on just fighting the wind but staying in my watts, and as aero as possible that when I got to mile 20ish I realized that I had been neglecting my nutrition.  Had barely drunk anything, had not eaten anything and taken no salt.  Part of the issue was the wind and gusts that I was nervous to reach for anything in fear of getting blown around.  And with my gloves on it was hard to get my salt and food.  I made some quick adjustments to get liquid in me, slowed down briefly to eat and get enough salt in.  This still became an issue the rest of the ride with the wind.  After making the right hand turn at mile 23, the wind was now a cross wind and I was able to pick my speed up a little.  When we made one more right hand turn, we headed south, so we had a direct tail wind.  I knew this stretch was only a short distance but wanted to take full advantage of the tail wind.  So I pushed the pace a little and felt like I was flying.  Soon it would end and we would make a left hand turn.  This section was difficult, as it wasn’t into a headwind but was on a curvy road so the wind was shifting all over in direction it was coming.  Right at mile 50, we cross onto a terribly bumpy road. I remember from last year and there is not anything you can do but just suck it up and ride.  The wind and the road were defeating.  And then to top of it off, there was a brush fire so breathing in smoke for a mile or so. I made it to the turn around and was coming back to Special needs.  As I pulled up yelling my number, they could not find my bag.  Usually I can grab my bag and keep going but I had to stop this time.  I lost several minutes here waiting; since I was already stopped I just loaded up my stuff once they found it.  I refueled and was off.  Just focusing on getting off this section.  After off this road, we were on the top part of the course, which is mentally tough for the mileage we are in and then it was a cross/head wind.  Kept focusing on staying aero and cutting through the wind.  At about mile 75 I came up on Ricardo, prior to this, I had no idea how I was doing in comparison to everyone else.  I knew my speed and time was significantly slower than last year but much different conditions, so I didn’t know.  Knowing how strong of a cyclist Ricardo is and the fact that he started about 10-15 min ahead of me, it lifted my spirits and mentality a little when I caught him.  At this point, I only had a little bit more to go until we headed back south and hopefully some more tailwinds.  Almost had a feeling of “final stretch” once I made that turn.  We did have an out and back so it broke up the direct tailwind and lost some benefit but was able to get my overall speed to increase for the whole ride in the last 25 or so miles.  My legs were starting to get tired and I knew I had a marathon ahead, so didn’t push too much.  Even staying in my watts, fighting wind like that for 5+ hours takes a huge toll on the muscles.

Time: 5:25:19 20.66 mph 14th AG
                This was significant slower than last year, than my IMTX time, and what I wanted for the day.  But with the conditions, I was happy with this time considering.

T2
                I handed my bike off to a volunteer and started my run to get my run bag. I may have accidentally shoved someone out of my way that was blocking my path I was trying to run on to get my bag.  But I was feeling good and happy to be off the bike.  And I was extremely excited to start the marathon and see what I could do.  I had an amazing volunteer, he helped my pull all my layers off, socks, everything and had my nutrition and shoes and socks ready for me.  This is the first race that I had to change like this.  I had my kit on underneath but still had several layers from the bike to take off.  I have been proud of my transition times, as this can be free speed in my opinion.
Time: 2:44

Run


                My legs were feeling good as I started the run.  I had high hopes for this marathon going into the race but with the winds on the bike, I hoped I had saved enough to have a good run.  As always I started out to fast. I was trying to slow my pace to be right at an 8 min mile.  It was 7:36, shit…ok slow down for the next one.  It was 7:37, hmm.  I told myself to try to slow down a little more because my goal was to run the first half marathon at 750-755 pace.  But I was feeling very comfortable and in a weird way like I was tiring myself out more by trying to slow down.  But I told myself just to focus on staying comfortable and smooth and was focusing on my form more than my pace.  I had decided that I would try to slow down a little at the aid stations to take in my salt and nutrition.  I think that worked perfectly, usually I am so focused at the beginning to keep moving fast that I think not getting in the adequate nutrition or even if I slosh it in, will hurt me later. I was feeling very smooth and comfortable.  All my splits were coming in around 7:50.  I got to the turnaround point and said ok, just do that 3 more times. I also told myself only 20 more miles (weird thought to have) “how many times have you run 20 miles with john and brian, that’s all this is, just another Saturday morning run”  On the way back, I started to cross paths with people I knew, it is always a great lift to see friends on the course.  I was trying to pick people off in front of me and then slowly real them in to pass them.  It was hard to tell who was in my AG and even if I could, I had no idea where they had started in relation to the TT format. So I had no idea what place I was in.  This was pretty frustrating but I just kept telling myself to have the run I know I can do.  As I was less than a mile from the half way turn around, I saw mollie and I was ecstatic, I knew that she had been very nervous about the winds but to see her when I did I knew she had a great bike!  When we passed each other she asked if I was done…No I said looking at her a little weird, then she asked if I was ok. Like something was wrong that I wasn’t done yet.  Even though at this point the pros hadn’t even finished…

As I looped around the block to special needs. I saw our Elite Cheer squad that was amazing! (Sonia, Roni, Michelle, and Kay).  I had asked Sonia to help me with my placement but because of the TT start, the tracker had me in 14th which is the place that I had finished the bike, because they couldn’t update the splits with placement not knowing who was in front.  Not knowing this at the time, when she said I was in 14th, it took me by surprise a little bit because I had been running well I thought and thought I would have been higher.  Oh well, now I told myself to forget about placement and just run like I can.  This may come back to hurt me in the end, not knowing what place I was in or where people were.  I slowed a little to get my second half nutrition from special needs and was off again.  At this point I was still feeling pretty good, but soon my stomach started to kind of rumble, not like my normal GI issues but just like I had to go to the normal bathroom (weird statement, not normal racing GI but just that time to go).  So not wanting this to turn into anything worse, I did stop at one portopottie.  Knowing my issues last year, I hoped this wouldn’t be a pattern.  Luckily I was able to go and be back running quickly with no issue.  As I was approaching 10 miles to go, my legs really started to hurt.  I just kept telling myself to shut up and keep running.  How many times had I run 10 miles, this was just a mid-week, mid distance run.  Just focus on that.  I told myself that I could literally collapse in 10 miles but just give me 10 more.  I kept pushing through with my legs and hamstrings specifically on fire.  I had seen Tommy Sustala at every turn around he was ahead of me.  I could tell that I was gaining ground on him.  And heading to the last turn around, he told me to come and catch him.  I can’t thank everyone enough for the support and the push, even when people are having a tough day, they always encourage others.  Once I got to the final turnaround, I had just over a 10K to go.  I actually didn’t go through the normal tough wall at mile 20.  This was the first race I was able to mentally push through the blocks.  I was extremely proud of myself for being able to make myself keep going.  I knew it was going to hurt but I wanted to run a sub 3:30 marathon extremely bad.  I knew I was capable and now I just had to do it.  I think the entire last 6 miles I was gritting my teeth, and others could see the grimace in my face.  I ended up catching Tommy at about mile 22, he told me to finish strong and go get it.  I was hurting but knew I could push.  Everyone I knew that I crossed was giving me such encouragement. And I apologize if I did not give them same out loud, in my mind I was.  As I made it to the final mile, it was lined with people, I saw the elite cheer squad one last time as I went around the block and turned off to the finishers chute.  I could see my family on the right side and was so happy and thankful to see them.  As I crossed the line, I did my normal jump and slapped the clock.  This time I was literally terrified I would collapse when I came down.  That is the most I have pushed my legs during an IM and I was not sure if they could hold me.  Luckily they did.  At this point, I had no idea what my overall time was or what my run time was, but I was happy with how I ran.  So no matter the time, I was happy that I was able to put together a solid run.  The sun had started to set, and it was getting cold.  I had them give me a cup of chicken broth and that warmed me up nice.  But the more I stood out there the more I was getting cold with my body not too happy with me, so I headed to my condo quickly to shower and warm up before coming back to find everyone else.
Time: 3:27:42  7:55 per mile pace  6th AG
Overall Time 8:55:45 6th place
Final Thoughts:
                I ended up missing 5th place by 28 seconds.  I outran the guy who finished 5th by almost 10 min on the marathon.  So, I do wonder if I would have been able to run him down knowing he was 5th place and I was less than 30 sec behind, if it was not a TT start.  But then again who knows what would have happened if there had been a swim.  So as defeating as it is to have lost a podium spot by 28 seconds, I am trying to focus on the positive of the fact I was able to have a solid run after a terrible bike conditions.  It only makes me hungry for more.  I feel I made huge gains going into this race and am excited to put in the work for my next one.  I guess I have a disease that it is less than a week and I am hard at work planning on how to get better for my next one. Happy with my race but never satisfied, always hungry for more.

I want to thank everyone that helped me get here.  Best coach I could ask for, Coolidge, not only a great coach but a great training partner there with me through all the steps.  My other training partners have pushed me to my limits and continue to challenge me to be better.  It was such a joy and honor to compete in this race with my dad.  And can’t thank him enough for everything.  And the support that my family gave to both of us through training and being there on the day.  Lastly Mollie, I am so privileged to have girlfriend that not only understands my craziness of racing these things but does them with me.  I am so proud of her and all that she accomplished and improved on setting huge PRs on this tough day.  Couldn’t do this without all the people in my life.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Zero Expectations

I am racing (or should I say participating) in Buffalo Springs Half Ironman this weekend.  My body is fully recovered from IMTexas being 6 weeks ago.  But my training just has not been focused and has just been pretty spotty at best since Texas.
For multiple reasons; letting my body recover, lack of desire and motivation, purposefully taking a little bit of a break, travel for work, other trips and obligations, etc.  In the long run, it is a good thing.

I have been fortunate enough over the past few races and even two seasons to be on a steady incline in my training, abilities, and thus decrease in times.  With the way I am feeling in my preparation for this race, I know this will not be the case, especially due to the difficulty of the race.
I know that going into this race, I will not be at my best and during the race (and after) and going to have to focus on that and be "ok" with it.  IT is going to be a hard race and I am not going to have my fastest time.  My goal is to go out and have fun and enjoy the day.  Not focus on time, pace, or place (if you know me at all, this is easier said than done).  But I will be making the trip with my Mollie, who is racing and then her mom is meeting us.  As well as my parents are meeting us and my dad is racing.  As well as there are several of my teammates from Houston making the trip to race. So it is going to be a fun weekend with everyone together and a great race to see all my teammates.  Just need to focus on that and not get frustrated if I don't have the best race.

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

IMTX

Pre Race
                After having a strong showing at Galveston 70.3, I felt confident going into this race, specifically on some of my nutrition issues from previous races.  It seems that I had made some strides in the correct direction to fix things.  Being an Ironman, I had all the normal questions of I did enough.  My body felt healthy and I felt rested, I felt the strongest I had felt going into a race ever.
                I arrived in the Woodlands on Thursday for check-in and did the normal pre-race stuff on Friday.  In hindsight, I was probably on my feet too much.  But it was good to be with teammates and try to keep my mind of things.
Race Morning
                I did sleep fairly well, and woke up around 4 am on my own.  I made a peanut butter sandwich and a small cup of coffee.  I started to get everything ready and finalized.  Was meeting some of the other team members at 515 in the lobby.  So Mollie helped carrying my stuff and I made our way to the lobby.  We took a picture and headed to transition.  It was fairly crowded and hectic a transition, I just needed to put my nutrition on my bike and do final checks on the bike (air in tires, correct gearing etc).  I was in and out quickly.  It was about a mile walk from transition to the swim start, so I wanted to make sure to start that walk with plenty of time to not feel rushed.  On the walk I ate a second peanut butter sandwich and was drinking a bottle of my infinit mix for more calories and sodium.  Once at north Shore Park, meet up with more teammates and started to get finalized and ready.  Most have been more nervous than I thought, I started to put my wet suit on with my normal running shorts still on (didn’t work to well), and come to find out later, I didn’t put my heart rate monitor on.  Once I correctly got dressed in my wetsuit, remember from last year it take a while to funnel everyone in, I wanted to make sure to get in the water.  As soon as the pros went off, I said my final good byes to Mollie (see definitely kept me calm all morning) and made my way to the water.

Swim
                We all had to funnel under the timing arch and then into the water.  It was a slow process, I guess people were uneasy.  Once in the water, I did a couple back and forth to warm up and then made my way to the start to position myself where I wanted.  Different from my previous races, I lined up to be in the mix, I lined up just off the buoy line and at the front.  I knew it was going to be rough start but if I could hold on, I could get with a pack and take the draft. Before I knew it the canon went off.  As usual, I got hit, kicked, literally swam over and pushed a few feet down.  But I felt that I was hanging on with a fast group.  I could feel myself in a draft, not necessarily of one person but in a pack.  I could also see people all around me, so we were in a big pack and that kept the contact close. But knew if I could stay with this, it could set me up for a nice swim.  The pack started to thin out as we got towards the first turn.  After the first turn, I was looking directly into the sun, which made it hard to sight to the second turn (which was only about 200M).  I ended up swimming wider than anticipated.  After the 2nd turn to head back towards the canal, I had lost the big pack I was with, probably for a combination of reasons, me not taking the turn the best, others not either, the better ones pulling away, etc.  I had counted the buoys on the way out so I knew roughly how many I had till the turn.  I knew that I could cut a little bit off by swimming closer to the shore line when I got to the turn, so I wanted to know how close I was.  Since I had lost the big pack, I would try to find some people to draft off on the way back but it was sporadic at best heading in.  As I made the turn, I guess I was turning sharper than the person next to me and got swam completely over and pushed about 2 feet under.  Also had my goggles knocked so my right eye started to fill with water.  I ended up swimming the rest of the way with my right goggle filled with water.  The canal is a different experience on the swim.  The waves created by the swimmers roll out and crash off of the concrete walls and then roll back into you as a swimmer.  Because it is so narrow it does seem to make it easier to sight but I could also feel myself getting pulled in closer and closer to the right wall, so I had to fight to get back to the middle of the canal and tried to find a draft.  It is a pretty cool part of the swim to be able to see spectators along the swim course. I could feel my left calf was close to cramping as I was trying to give an extra kick on the last few hundred meters. So I backed that off and just coasted in.  I could see the team tent and knowing where they were located I was getting close the exit.  I made the final little loop turn to the stairs and was pulled out.  I looked at my watch as I lapped it but didn’t really take in the time until I was running to the tent and thought “wait did that say what I thought it said.”  I felt I had a good swim but was extremely happy with that time.               
Time:     1:04:58   1:40/100M 23rd AG
T1
                I got my top half of my wetsuit off and had the strippers able to pull the rest of easily.  I ran up through the bags and was very happy with my location for the bag placement; I knew exactly where to do. I was up at the very top on the left side.  So I was able to quickly grab my bag and run into the tent.  I was able to get my bike and start my bike with no issues.
Time: 03:15

Bike
                I was riding my P5, with my Flo 60 and Flo Disc.  Coming out of T1, we get on woodlands parkway for the first several miles.  Which is a heavily traffic road but they had a whole lain blocked off for us.  This is where I realized I didn’t have my heart rate monitor on. I was trying to get my HR low starting the bike and kind of hard to monitor when I don’t have my monitor on.  So I tried to take deep breathes and get into a rhythm, hoping it was coming down.  I was trying to tell which way the wind was blowing right away to be able to determine the potential for the rest of the ride with the wind. It was hard to tell what it was doing.  It also took me about 15 miles to get comfortable and get into a rhythm.  I had to tell myself several times to ride my own race. Especially since I had a good swim and T1, I was up in the mix with people and wanting to ride away.  It continued to stay fairly hard to tell which direction the wind was coming from.  The weather report had stated it should be a wind out of the south southwest. However it didn’t feel like we had too much of a tail wind more swirling around.  I started to get into a comfortable zone and rhythm and for the most part the first half of the ride was pretty uneventful.  I was sticking to my nutrition plan exactly and taking my salt.  I was making ground on people and getting passed some but for the most part I felt I was moving up on the field.  I was taking a water bottle every aid station.  I had to pee for the first time at about mile 30 and had to pee about 6 times during the ride.  This is something I need to investigate, I feel that is a lot, however, it didn’t seem to cause me any stomach issues; maybe I was just extremely hydrated.  I tried to keep a high cadence especially into the wind or up hills.  I averaged a 90 cadence for the whole ride so I believe I was successful in doing so.  Knowing that the special needs bag is about at mile 60 I was doing the math in my head to make sure I had finished my nutrition bottles to start out on the bike for when I got there.  As we went past Richards, the miles started to get tough. I’m sure it was a combination of the rolling hills, the head wind, and the crappy road, but I was just hoping to get to special needs soon just because that was my mental break up point.  I was able to success grab my special needs, keep rolling and switch out my two bottles for two new bottles of infinite and then discard and keep rolling.  The road was still pretty crappy and was going to continue to be until about mile 85 which just rattles the brain.  However, I do love my new kit, I had zero saddle issues.   AT mile 61, I was stung by a bee on my left shoulder.  After I pulled the stinger out, I kept checking back to make sure it wasn’t swelling or showing any other signs of being allergic.  I didn’t think I was but it had been several years since being stung.  At mile 64, I was passed by Cort Prois from our team.  Honestly I was a little bit shocked.  I thought he would have beaten me out of the water and then he is a much stronger cyclist than I am, so I had no thoughts of seeing him on the bike.  This gave me two thoughts, I had a good swim and I was holding my own on a tough bike day.  About mile 69, I was then passed by Greg Colvin from our team.  Once again a little surprised, as he is a much stronger cyclist than I am as well.  And at our two previous Ironman races together he caught me about mile 25 and then at mile 43 respectively so once again I had the same two thoughts about my swim and bike.  And to this point, I had been seeing my average speed on the bike continuing to drop as the last almost half of the bike was into a head wind, so with that happening being discourage, I told myself everyone is having a tough day in the wind.  The remaining part of the course is rollers till about mile 90 and being into the head wind it was going to be tough going.   One thing I need to work on during my racing is I let other people get to me and not race my own race.  I passed a female racer and I guess she thought she would just latch onto me and let me pull her in the rest of the way.  She was sucking my wheel.  Not just drafting a little in the draft zone but directly on my wheel as if in fear of losing me.  So I would slow down and stretch out my neck and legs, just to mess wit her and she would not go around me, just sat behind me waiting for me to ride again.  I was not in the right mindset because of all this was going on the last when I should have been focusing on my race. This truly frustrated me, until about mile 80 and entire group of 15 in a peloton passed me (and my freeloader quickly jumped off my wheel to join them).  As soon as I was passed by them all frustrated and angry, I caught them and then surged passed them.   However within a mile they had caught and passed me again.  So no need to waste energy I sat back and let them go.  By this time we were getting close to back into town and as we made a right turn onto 2978 I could see the whole pack of them pulling away from me.  I basically rode the rest of the way without seeing another racer.  I did catch a few people once we were back on woodlands parkway that I am assuming feel off the group coming back into transition not wanting to appear to be close as a pack and then they just couldn’t hold the speed when alone, allowing for me to catch them.  As I made the final stretch in, I took my feet out of my shoes and dismounted.


Time: 5:17:23  21.17 MPH avg  18th AG


T2
                I handed my bike off to a volunteer and started my run to get my run bag.  Last year the concrete was extremely hot, however this year they had us on the grass and then had carpet lying down.  Once again, I knew where my bag was at the very top on the left side.  My legs felt a little uneasy on this run but I was into the tent and got my running stuff on and out the tent quickly.
Time: 3:08

Run
                My legs were feeling good as I started the run.  As always I knew I was going to start too fast.  I made myself run like I felt like I was walking; however that pace was still too fast.  I wanted to be around an 8-830 pace for the first few miles.  My pace came in around 7:50, however I kept telling myself to slow down, but I felt extremely comfortable so after the first few miles, I just kept with that pace and was holding it comfortably. I had been told by Dave and Brian that I was in 18th coming off the bike and I had mentally noted that I had passed 3 people in my AG by the time I got to mile 3.  I was continuing to feel comfortable and had started to take in some of my nutrition and drank water at the aid stations.  I knew that shortly after the section coming through the neighborhood I would get along the water way and would see the OUL tent. Right after I came through the path from the neighborhood I saw Dave and Brian.  They told me I had moved up some slots. They gave me some pointers and as always “run the tangents”.  I knew the team tent was coming but I wasn’t sure what exactly it was going to be.  As I got to where I could see the tent everyone was literally going crazy.  Later in the race this will really become helpful.  Austin was yelling on the megaphone, everyone was screaming and they hadn’t even seen me coming yet, this was for everyone else.  As soon as they saw me it grew significantly.  It helped immensely to have such great friends, teammates and support crew cheering and yelling for you.  Ian ran with me for a second and told me I looked comfortable and to stay loose.  The next few miles along the water way can be tricky to keep pace and footing with some of the turns, where the spectators are and the fellow athletes.  This is something if I do this race again will need to remember and run the tangents, especially with all the curves and turns.  Just before starting the next loop there is an out and back about 1 mile total.  It is the farthest north east part of the run and is completely open to the elements and extremely windy.  Up until this point I had felt extremely comfortable in my 7:50ish pace.  This is where that pace broke and my legs didn’t have it to get it back.  The next few miles was around an 8:20 pace and seemed to continuing to slow from there.  I knew that mentally the second loop was going to be the hardest and it seemed double worse since my pace had broken.  I got to my special needs bag at mile 10.5 and decided to take it then, I had two flasks of my nutrition in it and picked them both up leaving my original flask.  My pace was continuing to slow; my legs just didn’t have anything left to get my pace back up.  I was continuing my nutrition plan and taking water in at aid stations and salt.  I saw Brian first and told him that I was starting to hurt and my legs were just dead, he told me to try to maintain my form and keep my head I was still looking good.  Then I saw Dave shortly after I came out of the neighborhood again.  He told me I had moved up a few places, this re-energized me a little, even with my pace starting to get harder and hurting I was still moving up in my AG. I just had to keep pushing and hold on and see if I could knock off a few more people. Then I was coming up on the team tent, once again, they never ceased to amaze me.  After I got passed the tent and headed towards the farthest east part of the course, running around the Anadarko building, this was my slowest mile and really into a dark place mentally. Going through the aid station, I basically stopped took in some water and stretched my legs.  This was the darkest part of the run by far, but told myself I only had 10 miles left. My spirits started to pick up and mentally was in a better place once I started my final loop.  Just knowing that this was the last time I would have to run the loop and all I had to do was keep running and it would take me to the finish.  Before coming to the end of the waterway, I saw Ian and Mollie; they had come over to this side of the waterway to tell me that I was in 9th place.  Mollie knowing that if I knew that I would keep pushing with all I had.  (Come to find out later they had jumped in and swam across the canal to get to me, they are the best).  I told them my legs were hurting so bad they were literally tingling.  Ian told me “that leg pain will heal, as long as your stomach is good keep pushing”.   As I went back past transition, I was able to get reapplied with sunscreen, the sun was very heavy and I knew this would help.  My pace was nothing fast but I just knew I had to keep moving.  Overall I was still moving past people on the course.  However, it was becoming more crowded and I had to be careful with my running line to stay the tangents and not get caught behind someone slower. I didn’t have much energy to pick the speed up to go around if needed and didn’t want to get sucked in behind.  I knew I just had to get myself through the neighborhood on the back side and then would be on the home stretch through the team tent and the crowds.  As I came out of neighborhood I saw Dave again (can’t thank him enough), he told me that I was 9th place and that I needed to move and try to pick people off.  Just one person at a time in front of me.  Told me it was going to be tough but leave it all out on the course.  I passed through the team tent one last time and knew I only had about 2.5 miles left.  I didn’t have much left but I did give it all I had.  My pace picked back up for the last miles in.  I kept focusing on Dave’s advice and picking one person off at a time.  As I headed to the final out and back that had been crushing to me earlier in the race. As I was heading up the hill to the U-turn, I saw a guy that I knew was in my AG and was in front of me on the way down the hill from the U-turn.  He saw me coming too and we made eye contact.  I knew this was my chance to make up one more spot.  I took in my last cup of water and took the downhill as fast as I could (not fast).  I could see him up ahead and he kept shoulder checking to see where I was.  Once he had done that I knew that I was going to be able to overtake him.  With about a half a mile to the finish, I passed him.  He told me good job, knowing he wasn’t going to be able to keep up with me and I told him the same and id see him at the finish.  After I crossed, my legs felt the most uneasy that they have felt after any of my previous Ironman’s (do be honest this is the first one that I ran and didn’t have to stop for “bathroom breaks” or walked the majority of the time) so that was too be expected.  Mollie, Karen, Dave and Brian meet me at the finish.  I was so happy to see them, and appreciated everything they did along the way.  Turns out both my heels had been bleeding from being rubbed raw by my shoes.  My socks had fallen down and then because my shoes were wet they had rubbed my ankles raw.  I didn’t really feel it during the race but it was bleeding heavily after.  I guess my mind was focusing on other pain in my body.  Grabbed a drink and then headed back to the hotel to shower and change, so that I could head back out on the course to cheer on the rest of the team.  Everyone did a great job and was an honor to be on the course and be able to cheer everyone on.  My hamstrings as usual with my body were the sorest part.
Time: 3:46:46  8:46 per mile pace  8th AG
Overall Time 10:18:33  8th AG

Final Thoughts:
                My goal going into this race was to break 10, and I missed that by decent sized margin but I am learning every race and I know that I will get there.  I am extremely happy with how my race day came together.  Texas is a much more difficult course and conditions than Florida was.  And to PR by 11 min on a tougher course in just about 6 months, I couldn't be happier.  I am actually seeing the training I am putting in come through.  I still have a lot of improvement to do but I am proud that I was able to continue to make improvements throughout the field and my AG as the day went on.  My huge take away from this race is that I did not have the same GI or nutrition issues that I have had my previous races, so I believe that I am starting to get that figured out.  Only a few days after and I am already strategizing and figuring out what I need to do to improve and take it to the next level for next time.

I want to thank everyone that was there for me and involved in this day in some way or another. I would not have been able to do it without the help. Couldn't have done it without Mollie, she is the best Sherpa and girlfriend I could ask for. She was up early with me to get everything ready and help calm my nerves.  And was all over the course making sure to check in on me.



Friday, May 2, 2014

Two weeks out...

Soon the taper will begin which means the questions of "have a done enough?" are starting to creep in.

I have also been traveling 10 of the last 14 days for work.  So making some of the critical last weeks of training hard and then very tiring.  So once again, making these thoughts creep in even more.

I am trying to focus on the good training days and remember them.  Telling myself that I have done exactly what my coach has told me to do and I am (will be) ready.

Kind of hard to believe that it is only 2 weeks away from my third Ironman.

I am feeling very strong and had a great race at Galveston 70.3, which as a tune up race for IMTexas couldn't have gone much better.

Here is to the next two weeks and then enjoying the day!

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Ironman 70.3 Texas

What an up and down potential weekend with the weather reports all over the place.  But the day turned out much better than the forecast.  Only a little bit of rain, heavy winds, lower temps, but high humidity.

It was a great day for me, starting off the season with a PR is always a great note.
here is a little report:
Pre-Race:
                This was my first race of the season, so with that comes many unknowns and question marks.  I have felt that I have been making huge strides in my run training.  I felt that my cycling has gotten stronger but still not where I want it to be and still questionable on the ability for long distance endurance and still be able to run off the bike.  So that was going to be the biggest factor in my mind.  The weather all week had been saying for rain and windy conditions.  I tried to not focus on it and just let it be what I can’t control.  This was a train through race for IMTX in 6 weeks but was still prepared and wanting to do well.
               
Race morning:
                When I went to bed the weather was still the big unknown, when I woke up it was not raining but had rained and was extremely foggy.  The weather was going to continue to keep us guessing all day.  I didn’t start till 830, so there was plenty that could have happened with the weather.  It was extremely windy but was not raining too hard, just a few sprinkles here and there.  I was relatively calm all morning.

Swim:
                It was fairly chilly water but I decided to wear my sleeveless wetsuit.  First jump in the water was a little cold, but once the gun went off, the temperature wasn’t an issue.  The wind was creating a chop directly in the direction we were swimming.  So the first 500M or so was extremely tough and didn’t feel like I was going anywhere.  Felt like getting tossed around in a washing machine. After the race, I talked to a pro who gave me the advice in situations like that again, really try to bury your head in your chest to swim straight through the waves.  After the first buoy, we turned left and the waves were still strong but not completely fighting them.  This was pretty uneventful.  Making the final turn, we headed back to shore where the tide was actually pushing us away from the shore, I was pre-warned of this in the morning but still it was hard to combat.  Had to just keep me head down and focused. I felt like I had been swimming forever.  When I got out of the water, I felt good, usually a little disoriented but not this time. So was able to start my run at a good pace into transition.  I lapped my watch and saw my time, and I assumed correctly, I had been in the water forever. Just about 34:45, not even close to a PR and 1.5 min slower than last year. Oh well.

T1
                Since I felt pretty good, I was able to get to my bike quickly.  I struggled briefly with my arm warmers for the bike (probably could have gone without but was comfortable with them the whole bike). Was able to do a flying mount pretty well and was off on the bike.  Was happy overall with my T1.



Bike:
                The rain was still holding off, but the roads were slick and it was windy.  With what the weather had said, it was going to be a tail wind out and a head wind back. However, it was mainly a cross wind the whole time.  It did rain a few times just briefly, so the weather was a lot nicer than it could have been.  Being the second to last wave, there was hundreds of people in front of.  I made sure to be very careful the first few miles where it was slick and we had turns, then luckily it is just a straight away.  I basically spent the majority of the time on the left side passing people.  I was maintaining my watts, anticipating the potential for a headwind on the way back.  There was a slightly stronger wind on the way back but my watts stayed roughly the same and my speed didn’t get affected too much.  I did have to pee one time on the bike, but because there are no decent descents it basically had to come to a coast.  Looking back I was most likely under hydrating on the bike, it was not very hot or sunny but was humid, which will deceptively dehydrate you quickly.  Also, because of the cross wind, a few times I would reach for my bottle, a gust would blow the bike making me uneasy riding in aero with one hand, so a few times I opted to not take a drink when I knew I should because of safety reasons.  Overall I was very pleased with my bike, I held back on my watts and came in with a PR bike split.
               
T2:
                I was able to do a flying dismount successfully; there were very few other athletes around me, which made this easier.  I got to my rack quickly, had to move someone else’s stuff around, but got my shoes on and was out. 

Run:
                Coming directly out of T2, my stomach and my chest felt uncomfortable.   It was not the normal stomach GI issues I have had before. But it after about a mile I was able to get into a rhythm and this worked itself out.  Probably actually worked out for the better because it made me keep slower the first mile.  It was not too sunny or warm out but was humid.  There were almost like pockets of very humid air on the course that were worse than others.  I felt very strong and comfortable on the first two loops. I was holding right around a 7 min mile.  This is a very spectator friendly course and because of the out and backs, you see almost all the other racers.  It is always great to see my teammates out on the course.  As I started my third loop, I started to suffer a little bit.  I knew that it was going to be tough to push through.   Thinking back now, I was most likely dehydrated from the bike and then wasn’t taking much liquid in on the run either.  I kept pushing but my pace was falling slightly, closer to a 7:30 pace. I passed by the team tent the last time, Dave and Brian, both could tell I was hurting, so they gave me a few last minute words and told me to go get it, I had about 2.5 miles to go from here and knew I was going to have to work for every foot.  


Along the backside of moody gardens, I knew I had to get to the last out and back and then it was just back all the way to the finish.  With about ¾ a mile left, I got passed by a guy and I tried to just keep up with him.  I was struggling to keep up with him. But knew I was almost there.  Then Dave had come around to that side and saw me chasing this guy and yelled at me to stay on him and not let him get away.  I was able to keep with him and then in the last 300M kick it in and passed him back.  It felt good that I was able to push back from the pain I had in the last loop to have a good last mile and even big kick at the end.

Post-Race:
                I felt good after I finished. Legs were obviously tired and sore but overall felt good. I headed back to the team tent, were I was able to eat and change close and watch everyone else finish.

Final thoughts:

                Honestly going into this race, I was not sure what I was going to do. Yes I had several “ideas” of what times I could do and wanted but being the first race of the season, it is hard to judge where your fitness level is at.  I am happy with my time.  It is a 6 minute PR in the distance but a 24 min PR from this race last year.  I am excited to see my currently fitness level and have a better judge of where I am at going into IMTX.  It was great to have the support of everyone down cheering and racing.  I have the best teammates, coaches, and friends I could ask for, definitely gives me the motivation to keep pushing through.  Brian always keeps pushing me to my limits and believes in me more than I believe in myself. Him and Dave were always in the right spot to tell me the exact words I needed to hear at the time to get me going.  And couldn't have done it this weekend without Mollie being my Sherpa, she took care of me and everything I needed.

Thanks to everyone for the support and encouragement


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Monday, March 3, 2014

Tough Realization

Tri season is right around the corner.

February was a weird month training wise.  I was traveling a couple times for work, and work overall was extremely busy.  I took a ski trip with friends (which was a blast). but to say the least, my training was not on point at all.

And then all of a sudden, "shit its March"  Less than 5 weeks until Ironman Texas 70.3 which is kicking off my season.  I am using this as a training race for IMTexas, which is less than 6 weeks after Galveston.  Which means I have less than 11 weeks to IMTexas....

Mind starts racing of all sorts of thoughts and emotions.  Mainly, "crap will I be ready?"
I believe my run is farther along than at this point last year, but still wondering if its enough and I struggle daily with the thought of my biking endurance being low.  112 miles is a long way.

This weekend was a good weekend in training, in the regards that not everything went perfect but that it happened.

I usually have some great training partners that I run with for long runs.  I didn't have that this weekend, so my long run was me and me alone.  The humidity and heat started to pick up in Houston, so it was a lot of mental focus to maintain my pace through my long run.  I know the weather for IMTexas, so the heat and humidity training is welcomed.

Just like normal the weather in Texas is unpredictable so the weather changed drastically from Saturday to Sunday.  I don't know the exact wind speed but it was brutal.  The last half of my long ride was solo into the head wind.  It was tough and it hurt, wanted to stop and throw a pity party multiple times.  When I finished, I think I was excited to do my brick run, just because I was off the bike. Legs were toast but pushed to finish the brick.

This weekend wasn't my best workouts by far, but definitely were great.  You learn more from the tough ones than the ones that seem easy.

Lot of work left to do...

#gladtobehere

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Nutrition

As endurance athletes, we know (or we should know) that nutrition during the events and training is important.  We or at least I do, spend countless hours calculating numbers and figuring out exactly how much to drink and eat and intake during each hour of training and racing.

However, about 6 months ago, I went to see a sports nutritionist (Dr. Chase Banks) for my day to day nutrition as well as race day nutrition.  We have made some small tweaks and changes to my race day nutrition but my biggest changes have been to my day to day nutrition.  He structured a plan that is specific to me, my body, the amount of training I do and my goals.  I actually greatly increased the number of calories that I eat during the day, however, everything is the "correct" kind of calories for me.  This is when I was first introduced to one of my now sponsors, www.healameal.com.  Joe, at Heal a Meal works closely with Chase and prepares my meals exactly to his specification to help me achieve our goals.

I have gone back and have had several consultations with Dr. Banks.  I just went back the other day, and I had gained 2 lbs.  However, I had lost 2% body fat and increased my muscle mass by over 2%.  After six months of working with both Chase and Joe, I can say that every day nutrition is just as important as race day nutrition.  Have the proper diet has helped me recover faster and properly prepare my doby to be in the top form it can be.  You can't put sludge in your car and then one time put premium and expect it perform to its top abilities.

I have learned a great deal about endurance racing and my body specifically over the past year.  My nutrition is at the top of the most important.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Well that...

Sucked.

So that was, to say the least a disappointment.  My first standalone marathon did not go as planned.  Things started to fall apart about mile 12 (yes extremely early in a marathon for the wheels to come off).  However, I had done the training and the prep and was ready.


Granted I had a pretty high goal for my first, my training had been on point to be able to achieve this goal.  So going from having this goal, to being resorted to have to walk is very defeating.  There were times I contemplated walking the remaining 10 miles.  This leaves me confused and frustrated, however I will learn from this and move on.

Not the way I wanted to start my 2014 season, but just gives me more chances of going up from here.





Friday, January 17, 2014

Pre Houston Marathon

I have different and weird nerves going into the the marathon on Sunday.  Slightly different than my normal pre race nerves.  Understandably different I guess.  This is my first stand alone marathon.  I have raced two Ironmans so technically I have ran 2 marathons.  I think I have done this backwards than most people and have found that training for this marathon has been completely different than training for the marathon aspect of an Ironman. 

Not coming from a running background, this is the first time that I have even trained for a stand alone running event.  I jumped straight into triathlons, so focus has been spread across all three events.  I have learned a great deal about my running over the past few months.  There have been ups and downs along the way.  But I have found a true enjoyment of running.   










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I know this is going to be a tough day but I am excited to see what the day holds and is a great way to kick off my 2014 schedule.







Friday, January 3, 2014

IMFL Race Report

Bryan Apgar
Race Report
Ironman Florida November 2013
Pre Race
                Preparing for my second Ironman is a different experience but just as ever stressful.  I knew fully that I could complete the distance but focusing more on specific performance made me stress out more in a way.  I arrived in Florida on Wednesday, 4 days before the race.  It seemed early and still not enough time at the same time.  Every day seemed busy with finalizing easy workouts, getting things checked in, organized etc.  One of the biggest questions marks and honestly what made me the most uneasy was the swim in the ocean.  Swimming was (and still is) my worst of the three events, but it used to give me severe anxiety.  During the first practice swim in the ocean, some of these feels came back.  The waves and current were significantly worse than anticipated.  Especially the day before, a storm was coming in and the waves were absolutely insane.  I highly questioned the possibility of the majority of people being able to finish the swim including myself if it was this bad on race day.  The more I thought about it the more I questioned.  I talked to Brian the day before telling him some of this and he told me, that everyone is swimming in the same water so don’t worry about what you can’t control.  Easier said than done but this did help me.  It became a mental game and little did I know the first of my mental tests that would push me to a limit during this race.
Race Morning
                The storm did come in as predicted and race morning was calmer than the day before, however the waves were still pretty heavy but nerves were calmed a little knowing that the water was better than the day before.  The location of our condo was perfect, it allowed us to go drop of our special needs bags, go get our bikes set up with nutrition and everything else, and then get back to the condo to be able to relax a little inside before getting our wetsuits on.  I headed down to the beach about 6/615.  The time prior to a start of an Ironman is still a surreal experience to me.  Thousands of people that have spent thousands of hours to prepare for one day, still gives me chills.
Swim
                They funneled us through the timing chute and then had everyone line up along the beach but had signs for speed.  I lined up under 1-1:10.  My time at IMTX was 1:13 but I have improved as a swimmer so being aggressive in my positioning.  I also lined up in the front of the group and was well in the water when the canon went off.  With the waves getting past the break, this made the mass start of an Ironman to another level.  Not only were 3000 people swimming with you, but the waves of the ocean were throwing these people all over the place, so I had people landing on top of me, going under me, swimming directly into my side.  I was getting tossed around like a washing machine for the first 300 meters but felt forever.  Once I got passed the break, I was able to get into a little bit of a rhythm of swimming, still different than smooth lake, having to learn to breathe with the motion of the ocean.  Before I knew it was at the first turn buoy.  As I turned left, I could feel a little bit of current pulling us in the direction we needed to go, this was huge because days before, the current was the other way, which would make this turn extremely difficult.  Things had still not thinned out very much and was still in very close proximity to people continually getting hit.  We made the turn back towards shore, it was not what I thought it would be, there wasn’t a current pulling us back to shore, wasn’t sure what I was expecting but not really what was happening.  Then I felt it getting even more crowded than it had been.  I then realized that we were approaching the shore and those same breaking waves were back and throwing everyone all over.  So you would be able to ride the wave and then it would suck you back if you weren’t careful, thus causing almost like a backup on a highway.  Even being probably about 200M from shore, when the wave would push me in, I would then stand up so I wouldn’t get sucked back out, then start swimming again to ride the next wave.  It was an extremely weird thought and way to move forward but seemed to be working great for me as I found myself passing several people here.  I had never done a two loop swim. My HR usually spikes as soon as I get out of the water and run for transition, so I was afraid that would happen and then make the second loop extremely hard.  However, because of how we had to exit the water, and not in a full sprint because of having to run through the water and in the sand it allowed me to stay within myself and in control.  I told myself I wasn’t going to look at my watch because I didn’t want to know how I was doing.  I had told myself in the morning that with the crazy waves, it was just about getting out of the water without draining myself too much.  So I grabbed a cup or two of water drank some and then headed back towards the water.  Once again, we had to get past the break, however, this time we were swimming diagonally against the current and against the waves to the first buoy.   It had thinned out a little bit at the start of the second loop; however the waves still seemed to be just as strong.  As I made it to the turn buoy, I could see something in the water and figured out it was the rope that was anchoring the buoy to the ocean floor but with the current pulling it, it was diagonal.  And just as I realized what it was, it moved and smacked me in the face, right across my right eye.  So my right goggle started to fill with water, I tried to suction it back on but was already filled with water.  I tried to swim with my eye closed.  As I made that left turn I knew I would have the current with me a little bit and figured I could swim with my eye closed.  But when I made it to the next turn to head back to shore it was really bothering me and made it hard to focus and swim.  So turned over quickly took it off, drained it and then put them back on.  And I was off swimming again.  This is when it really hit me that I was making my final “leg” towards the swim finish.  I had been the most nervous about the swim and it was almost over and I felt very confident in my swim, didn’t waste too much energy but thought I swam with a purpose and was hoping for a decent time.  As I exited the water, I could see the overall clock and it said 1:16.  This sinking feeling hit me.  WHAT? I thought I had swam well and I was three minutes slower than Texas.  I told myself to shut up and it was only the beginning of a long day and everyone swam in the same water, so everyone was slow.  We ran up the beach and I laid down in the sand to get my wetsuit pulled off.  I know that I am slow at getting my wetsuit on my own so if I can I prefer to have the strippers do it.  However, lying in the sand to get it done sucked.  The showers they had didn’t do much to get anything off of you.   As I ran through yelling my number I hit the lap on my watch and my watch said 1:06.  I was thrilled; I didn’t realize that the big clock was showing from the pro start still.  It was like I just go 10 free minutes.  Oddly enough, this really boosted my confidence.  This was probably the most confident I had felt in a swim at a half or full IM distance and it meant a lot that my time actually reflected it. 
Time:     1:06:06   1:42/100M  16th AG
T1
                Because of how line up was for the running to where the bags were and getting the bags, there wasn’t a lot of room, so even though I was yelling my number, I actually ran past my own bag and then turned around and got it myself.  Just a good mental note for this race in the future. I ran into the changing room, I had my race kit on underneath my wetsuit so I just had to put my helmet, shoes and sunglasses on.  The volunteer was awesome in putting everything back in the bag and helping me.  Because I wore the same kit, I wished I had taken more time to wash myself off with the bottle I had in my T1 bag.  I spent some time but not enough and ended up using about half a bottle that was on my bike to rinse my arms and body of with sand.    After I got my bike I ran past the mount line and since it was no flying mounts allowed, I actually found the curb and used it as leverage to get on and going faster, no issues here at all.
Time: 05:11
Bike
                I was riding my P5, with my Flo 60 and Flo Disc, with my 11-26 cassette and 53-39 quarq elsa crank.  The first several miles are a ride through town and spectators are several miles down.  Personally this helps with the excitement and adrenaline, however making it hard to get my heart rate down.  I know I have an issue with my HR elevating after the swim.  After the first 7 miles through town there is a right hand turn to head north.  The wind for the day was coming out of the N, NNE, from about 8-15 mph, so this turn put us into a head wind for the next 12 miles.   Knowing it was still early in the ride, I tried to focus on my watts and staying aero as possible.  I was getting passed by a few people here and there, but kept telling myself to race my own race, especially into the wind, cut my losses here.  At mile 22, I made another right had turn, this made the wind be a cross headwind off my front shoulder.  Right about here, I hear several motorcycles and a car coming.  It was the prince of Bahrain.  He had a motorcade of 4 motorcycles and a cop suv with him the entire ride.  Honestly I got extremely pissed off.  I don’t know why.  Maybe because he passed me, maybe because he was drafting of his motorcycles, maybe because of all the attention he was getting. I don’t know why but I had to talk myself back and focus on myself.  I could feel myself trying to chase him or stay with him.  That was dumb, so I actually sat up and let him get some distance away. I didn’t want to deal with all that hype; I needed to race myself and only myself.  I’m proud for making myself do this but shouldn’t let it get to me in the first place.  I calmed down and was just in the zone of racing now.  Staying within my watts focusing a lot on this wanting to set myself up for the best possible run.  Around mile 25 was the first time I had to pee, this was a good sign to me, having to pee within just over an hour being on the bike meant I was on track with my hydration and nutrition.  I ended up peeing about 6-7 times on the bike in total, not sure if that was too much and a sign of what was to come with stomach issues, maybe I was over hydrating.  After a few turns, I knew the speed I was able to hold with winds from most directions, so I even dialed my watts back slightly, because I knew I could get the time on the bike I wanted and be under in the watts avg I wanted.  In hindsight now, may not have been the best idea but all learning experience and will need to focus on strategies with coach moving forward to other races.  At about mile 35, we made a south bound turn,  assuming I would have a tail wind, but it was hard to figure the winds out, seemed to be gusting and blowing from different directions.   Right about mile 38, I was wonder when Greg Colvin would catch me and as I thought it, he passed me, we exchanged some words of encourage meant (both having lofty goals for the day) and he went on his way.  I knew he would catch me on the bike but pleasantly surprised I held him off that long (he passed me at mile 20 on the bike at Texas).  At mile 40, we would make a left turn, so having to cross the lanes of traffic to get out of the right lane then cross the other side of traffic.  Cars were starting to back up as we approached.  About a half mile from the turn, I heard screeching and then a huge crash.  I guess a car had been paying attention the racers and not the car stopped in front of him.  It sounded directly behind me.  All I could do was gripped my bike and pedaled faster.  I just visualized a car bumper coming flying and taking me out.  As I made the turn I yelled at a cop that a crash had happened between cars a ways back.  At mile 50 we hit a 5 mile out and back section, so 10 miles total.  When driving the course, I could feel how terrible this road was in my truck so I knew it was coming but feeling it on the bike was a complete different experience.  I had never ridden on road like it.  It wasn’t chip seal.  It was like there were bumps or cracks ever two feet, so the bike was continually going up and down bumping.   Also because of the road, it was like a landmine with bottles, tubes, nutrition, etc that had fallen off everyone’s bike.  This seemed to be a huge area where everyone thought it was ok to draft.  Not sure if they thought no marshal would drive down the out and back or if the road was just killing everyone they needed to draft, but it is frustrating seeing it when I try so hard not to.  This is something once again I need to work on not letting bother me.  I can’t control it so who cares, race what I can race.  I focused on staying as aero as I could and maintain watts but not to drill my legs on this section but get out as quick and with as less damage as possible.  I made the turn around and then shortly after was the special needs bag.  I was right on with my nutrition plan so I needed to fill everything up.  I grabbed my bag switched out my bottles and add my extra bars and salt tabs.  As we were approaching the end of the road, there were several spectators at the corner, which surprised me to have that many people that far out on the course.  And a nice surprise a longtime family friend of mine that I didn’t even know was coming to watch at all much less be out there was at mile 60.  It was a nice little pick me up after such a crappy road.  We made a turn back north so into a slight headwind, however it was lined with trees which helped block a lot of the wind.  Only a few miles down the road we would make a sharp left hand turn and from driving the course I knew that this is where some rollers would come into play.  Over the next 10 miles were some long rollers, nothing too steep just some long rollers with decent descents.  I found myself caught in a pack, I didn’t want to burn anything to get past them especially going up a hill but didn’t want to get caught drafting.  I feel I didn’t execute this part very smartly; I did get caught behind them. Finally at one point towards the end, going down one of the longer descents, I used some extra energy and passed a line of about 12 riders.  I knew that even if some of them passed me back I would be able to ride how I wanted versus getting stuck at the back of the pack, this turned out well.  At mile 73, we passed through an intersection and from what I remember when driving the course; this was going to be the mileage that got tough mentally.  It was about an 11 mile stretch of nothing, no turns, no hills, just trees and pavement, and for me mentally somewhere in the 70-90 mileage is where things are tough mentally.  I went through the intersection knowing it was going to come and I mentally told myself to not let it happen.  I lasted a few miles and it hit me, the miles got tough, it felt like I was barely crawling along and the miles weren’t moving at all.  So I stretched my legs out and my body.  And then refocused on my position and my form (could hear angie saying heels down smooth rotation, you cycle with your legs so why are you holding anything in your shoulders, give me all you got!).  At mile 84 we made the turn back south,  even though we had another out and back this just mentally made it seem closer because now I was heading in the direction of transition.  Plus we had a cross tailwind, so my spirits and speeds were good.  It was easy cruising till mile 92, both mentally my mindset was better and the wind helped a little.  I made the turn for the out and back.  And to my surprise it was shorter than I thought (we miss drove it when we drove it before) so I turned and was back to that main road quicker than expected which was good because it seemed to be a heavy windy negative in both directions while in there. It was about mile 97 as we turned back onto the main road. So I knew I only have 15 miles to go.  We had one last “hill” that was a bridge.  I felt confident in how I had ridden the whole ride because I past several riders going up the bridge without increasing my watts a lot, they had dropped way off, they just had nothing left.  As I made the final left turn to the road into the town, I focused on spinning my legs at a high cadence keep drinking and take my last salt on the ride.  The spectators started to increase and tried to maintain my focus.  I had ridden the final mile several times over the past couple of days; however I still believe I took my feet out of my shoes to early.  But honestly do not think it matter too much I was still able to pedal with my feet on top of my shoes, as I was slowing down anyway coming into the chute for the dismount.  As I was approaching the dismount line, I was catching two riders in front of me and was nervous on what they were going to do as they dismounted.  I was the only one that did a flying dismount and was able to be in more control of myself and my bike because of this. I was able to move around them as I got off my bike.  I was exactly where I wanted to be time wise coming off the bike and had moved up to 13th in my AG.
Time: 5:10:22  21.65 MPH avg  13th AG


T2
                I handed my bike off to a volunteer and started my run to get my run bag.  It was much shorter than the run for T1.  And the ground was near as hot as the ground was at Texas.  My legs were definitely pretty wobbly as I was running to get my bag and made me a little nervous.  However, I grabbed my bag and went into the building.  I grabbed a volunteer and headed over to a whole open row of seating.  The volunteer helped pull my shoes out and I took my helmet off.  Dried my feet off quickly and put my socks and shoes on.  I grabbed my belt and my nutrition and was out the door.  My legs felt back to normal after I stood up from a brief rest.  Made me feel a little better to get back to normal to run.
Time: 2:41
Run
                My legs were feeling good as I started the run.  Right out of transition, I passed my family and friends.  I really had to focus on pulling back my pace.  Remembering to focus on my form and drastically slow my pace.  I was within my capabilities but still needed to slow down.   The first 1.5 miles is lined with spectators.  On the first half of the first loop specifically it was not too crowded, so all the spectators seemed to be specifically cheering for me.  Which really boosted the adrenaline but I knew I needed to refocus.  I feel that my form was off, so I tried to just get into my own zone and focus on my breathing and form.  Trying to zone and pretend I am on this run alone, just running.  I was feeling good, and then got passed by the bike for the lead pro male.  He was obviously on his second loop, but still very cool to be able to experience the course the same as the male pros.  We then cross a main street and head into a neighborhood.  It was pretty empty, not a lot of spectators or racers at this time.  I actually enjoyed it, this let me just focus on myself and what I needed to do.  It was also decently shaded, even though not a hot day, still any cover from the sun is always welcomed.  At about mile 3.5 I felt a little bit of a pull in my left hamstring, like it wanted to cramp.  I slowed for a second and took some salt.  It almost immediately went away. Not sure what it was but it didn’t come back.  Shortly after, I saw Ricardo on his spot for volunteering running directions.  It was nice to see a familiar face at this point.  He told me I was looking good and I asked if he would text the team to let them know he saw me.  As we continued to loop around through the neighborhood, it was still very empty and I would only see a few pros, some catching me on their second loop and some crossing me on their way back from the turnaround.  I kept trying to tell myself that this was just a long run.  Focus on breathing and form.  I was right around the time I wanted for this part of the race. Holding a good 8 min pace and my HR was exactly where I needed it to be as well. There are several turns on some uneven road through this section of the run.  Making it imperative to focus on footing and trying to run the tangents.  I was sticking pretty closely to my nutrition plan.  I had my bottle and flask with me taking pulls of my infinite mix and my gel mix every so often and was taking water.  I was also pouring water and sponges on my head and putting ice down my kit.  Looking back now, I potentially was taking too much water in.  As well as pouring too much on my head.  My shoes became very wet and formed blisters on my toes.  There were times during the run that I could feel my stomach sloshing, not sure if this could have led to my GI issues but I am sure it didn’t help.   At about mile 5, we ran back across the main street and into another more spectator friendly condo neighborhood.  We then had to cut through some side grass and out by a bar. Then we got on the sidewalk to get back to the state park.  This sidewalk was narrow and was tough later in the run, to be filled with people going both directions.  As we entered the state park, there was an older lady volunteer that said the “refreshments are up around the corner” Obviously she was meaning the aid station but it made me have a good chuckle.  This let me know that I was still feeling good and in control, I know that when I can smile and laugh I am doing well.  We did have to run over 4 pieces of plywood that they laid down as we cut through the woods to get to the path.  It was out to about mile 6.5 and then we u-turned around to head back.  It was a very tight turn around so hard to keep any speed or momentum going.  At this point I was starting my way back so I started to see more and more people.  Was able to start to gauge where I was in relation to people behind me and in general that I was seeing more and more people that were behind me, thus I was in a good position.  As I made my way out of the park I was still feeling good.  We were on the same sidewalk as when entering the park and with more people it was more crowded and having to watch out for footing.  As I was making my way to a left turn around a bar and too an aid station it hit me like a ton of bricks.  My stomach cramped and seized up.  I slowed to a walk through the aid station. Not taking anything in from the aid station but getting some water on my head. And hoping that I could get this under control quickly.  I picked my pace back up to run but only for about a quarter mile, but couldn’t continue at that pace, so then I was approaching another aid station on the other side of the course but decided I needed to use the portopottie, becoming the first of many.  Over the next 2.5 miles, I told myself to push forward as strong as possible.  I would be able to run at about an 8:30 pace but then would have to slow to a walk for a few hundred meters until the pain/feeling in my stomach would subside then I would pick my pace up again.  This last several miles with 2 more stops at portopotties.  However, at about mile 11 I was able to keep a consistent run pace for the next 3 miles.  This stretch was as we were approaching the turn around and special needs thus again seeing multiple spectators. So maybe a combination of coincidence and that mentally I was able to run consistently, albeit not at my desired pace but was still running.  However, I was in pain.  I saw Kelly and Isaac at about mile 12 and had told them I was in pain and what the issues were.  I remember being in low place in the run, knowing the pain I was in and wasn’t even half way done yet.  Seeing them and then the team tent and family did help but still knowing it was going to be a long second loop having to suffer through this.  As I ran past the team tent, Jeff ran with me for a little bit and I told him I was in pain, he told me I was looking good anyway (probably lying, I felt like I looked terrible).  As I went through special needs bag, I did take me special needs bag and grabbed my second half of the race nutrition even though I was changing my nutrition plan up a little bit and only really taking in what my body was reacting well too.  I started the second loop still able to hold a running pace but hurting.  I told myself I had one more loop.  I did this before and I can do it again.  I had mentally already accepted the fact I was not going to hit my originally time goal and it became a struggle to whether I was ok with it or not.  It mentally became a game that my new goal was to overcome these issues and pain and keep pushing forward.  I was still able to keep a running pace and wanted to seem strong as I ran past the team tent and the main drag of spectators.  There was a slight incline through one of the streets and it was like this was the breaking point.  My form had broken down and that’s why going up even the slightest of climbs broke me.  It was the first time I had to walk in the past couple miles.   This is when serious internal conversations started and would continue for the rest of the way.  Internally I was defeated, already having made several “pitstops” to no true relief and was in severe pain and a real risk of crappy myself (that will mess with you as a grown adult).  I had several intense negative thoughts at this point.  My mind was playing games with me, “you still have 12 miles to go, how do you think you will finish that, it was torture for the past 6 miles much less double that”.  I knew I was right around where I saw Isaac and Kelly on the way to finish the first loop and I was hoping to see them soon just for a pick me up.  I would struggle to keep a running race and have to slow to walk and then pick my pace back up.  I was honestly afraid of not finding a portopottie in time if I ran too much.  But I was pushing that limit to the max. I was going to finish and finish strong.  I finally saw Isaac and Kelly and I was happy to see them…for about a second, and then I just snapped at both of them.  I kind of yelled at Kelly and told her to just stop, she was running next to me trying to talk to me and to no fault of hers I snapped on them (I later, said I’m sorry).  The only words I got to them were, “I need a bathroom” and “stop”.  Needless to say I was in a dark point.  Almost immediately after they left, I felt terrible about how I was towards them and thought about it for the majority of the remainder of the race.  Why was I being such a jerk, they were only trying to help.  I made the decision to do this race.  I am the one pushing myself to limit for these goals.  I am doing a freaking Ironman, I am capable of doing one and what an honor to be able to still be going as fast as I am. But I’m bitching like a little baby because my stomach hurts and I’m not going to finish with the aggressive goal time I set for myself.  But I am going to finish and I am still going to finish with a huge PR.  So I told myself to shut up and be positive.  Shortly after this I did find a portopottie (this was number 4 so far).  I found it ironic that every portopottie I stopped at (there will be 7 total for those keeping count) had a little mirror on the door on the inside.  It almost always happened that I would look myself in the eyes as I was pulling my tri kit up.  And I’d look at myself for a second tell myself what I was made of, tell myself the amount of work I have put into this, say some mantras, and to push through with everything I had.  This didn’t make my GI issues go away but it refocused me.  I knew it was going to be dark mentally for the rest of the race but I was back in control and going to push through.  Over the next several miles it was tough, it was a run as long as I could and then walk, but even the running pace was slower than it had been before in the similar situation.  But I never quit.  I would run about as far as I could without having an “accident” before I’d walk.  I made two more portopottie stops (now at 6) and the one at mile 17.5 seemed to help a lot, my stomach was feeling better, not 100% but was able to get a good 8:30 pace and hold it for about two miles.  This was right before we entered the park, I knew that all I had to do was get to the end of the park and I would be on my way home to the finish.  As I came running out of that portopottie I started talking with a women and she goes “I bet you’re on mile 18 aren’t you” I told her I was but I was hurting pretty bad.  She goes doesn’t matter, keep going your almost there.  (And I hate when people say I’m almost there cause you never are) but this actually surprisingly helped me.  She was right I was almost halfway through the second loop.  And her point on saying it was she was on her first loop still.  So I again refocused myself and kept pushing.  I had made it to the turn around and was feeling decent, I was on my final stretch home, I knew I could do this and even though I was doing some math in my head on finishing time, I did reevaluate a finishing goal but I just wanted to finish strong.  Having a new finishing goal did give me ideas of what I needed to do and little goals to reach on the way back.  I did make one more portopottie stop at mile 20, then I left the park and headed back through the streets to the neighborhoods.  Remembering where I had crossed paths with some of the other teammates (Clark, Ron, Harvey) I knew I should be seeing them soon again.  I was still having some troubles but wanted to seem strong for them, so I didn’t want them to see my walking.  I don’t know why but I thought if I appeared to be strong to them, then I would be strong. More mental queues that we tell ourselves.  The next 3 miles seemed to go by slowly but then at the same time I was crossing the mile 23 mark before I knew it.  As soon as I crossed the marker, I didn’t care or even think what my time was. I knew I had about a 5k remaining.  I had gone through several emotional changes through this run so far and I don’t know what it was about the 5k point being significant (maybe because a manageable distance) but I became very carefree.  At this point I had even stopped thinking about what I needed to run to reach my new finishing goal.  It was like I was just out running my two loops after HOP.  My pace picked up to around an 8:30 min mile.  I even feel like my form got better again. I made my way across the street into the highly spectated area, through all the people. My pace picked up to an 8 min pace and my spirits were lifting, I was smiling at people.  As I was approaching the last right turn then left turn to get onto the main stretch to go by the team tent. There was a slight down hill (the same uphill earlier that seemed to the straw that broke my back at the beginning of the second loop). I took that down hill and carried the momentum into the final mile.  I was running a 7 min pace.  It was narrow path with people in both directions.  I even had to go into the main road (of cars) to get around someone.  I was feeling great, my GI issues seemed to be gone and my legs (somewhat frustratingly so) still felt great.  I had less than a mile until I would hear the words again. I ran past the team and smiled at everyone, I threw my nutrition bottle to Jeff cause I wanted to cross with nothing in my hands.  I had to loop around the block and then run past the special needs and split off to go to the finish.  As I was making the loop around the block, I heard a women say “holy shit he is moving”.  This made me feel awesome, at the time 25ish in the marathon and about the 140ish mile of the day, I was still strong.  As I was making the split to finish versus starting second loop, it was probably about a quarter mile left; there were two people I could see in front of me.  I gave it everything I had to pass them.  Once I did, I had the finisher chute to myself.  It was lined with people and I was just high fiving everyone and not caring.  I was able to pick out some of my family and friends on my right as I ran down.  I am not sure why or what caused me to but as I crossed, I jumped up and slapped the timing clock.  Honestly probably, just about summed up the way I felt finishing the race.  I felt awesome; I had some very dark times during the run but had come back from them and learned a lot about myself.  Without even really knowing it, I had beaten my second time goal I gave myself during the run, my finishing time was 10:29.  I drank the water bottle they gave me and then grabbed another, I had neglected my nutrition the last three miles I was feeling good, so I was extremely thirsty.  I was doing well, so the catcher let me go and I walked out the exit and my parents were right there.  Then the rest of my family and friends came over.  I could not have asked for a better support/cheering section.   I wanted two things, a beer and a shower.  So my dad bought me a beer and then my parents and Isaac walked with me back up to the condo.  After I showered, we headed back down and watched everyone else finish, I got some food (I was starving by this point, I guess that what happens when you nothing left in your body after 7 stops).  I was tired but had so much energy; it is pretty amazing how the body reacts to going through such an event like this all day pushing your body to the limits and then level of endorphins that are released just by crossing the finish line.  It is amazing.  I stayed till midnight at the finish line when I did Texas and I knew I was going to again here.  And I knew several more people doing this race so being able to see everyone finish is just as exciting as yourself. 
Time: 4:05:03  9:21 per mile pace  19th AG
Overall Time 10:29:23  19th AG
Final Thoughts:
                For the next few days after the race, I went through several emotions, upset, frustrated, thrilled, excited.  After reflecting for over a week on the race, I am extremely happy overall with my race.  I pushed through a tough swim start, to have my most comfortable swim.  I stayed perfectly within my plan on the bike, knowing I did not kill myself there.  And I pushed through a lot of pain and issues both mentally and physically on the run.  I PRed every aspect of the three sports individually and I PRed my overall time by 1 hour and 43 minutes.  I worked extremely hard for this race.  Part of which I believe was shown and part of which was not.  The fact that I was able to mentally push through and finish the run strong, I know that my training and ability is getting there and am capable of a faster time.  This only leaves me hungrier for more.  I am both mentally and physically stronger moving forward.  I cannot wait for 2014 season.

I want to thank my family for putting up with me during all of this.  I want to thank my teammates for pushing me and training with me.  Personally thank my coach, Brian, his guidance and expertise has helped me get to levels I never thought I would and get me to where I am.  I would not be anywhere without the people that are closest to me in this world.  You all make me who I am and push me to be better.